There is a pattern with me that rears it's head, though thankfully less and less. A pattern of pain = escape. I can recall as early as primary school getting headaches as my out. It was my go to. How could I function or do anything I was expected to if I had a headache? I have always been a high achiever as well. So I can see the relationship between my headaches and key times in my life when achievement was imminent, possible or a breakthrough was on the horizon.
Read MoreSo at the moment I am sitting to write this piece from a point of pain. An all too familiar default in my body is headache. Yes there are physical reasons. Let’s just call it transition or change of life. This explanation still does not alter the fact that pain comes up in my life.
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A lot can happen that seems insignificant yet in total is significant.
(A day. Interactions. Observations. Encounters. Genuine people.)
Read MoreMy birthday came around the other day. Usually I tend to underplay it and hide hoping no one notices. I am and never have been one to be in the spotlight and for years birthdays just seemed like too much attention on me. I remember even when my son was born 20 years ago finding an excuse to focus even less on me.
Read MoreA mentor recently invited me to reflect on and meditate on where I belong. This activity is beyond relevant for me at the moment. I have of recent pulled away from effectively every group except my immediate family. But even in that my family has pulled away through growing up and maturing into adulthood making it seem like we are farther apart.
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