There is a pattern with me that rears it's head, though thankfully less and less. A pattern of pain = escape.  I can recall as early as primary school getting headaches as my out. It was my go to.  How could I function or do anything I was expected to if I had a headache?  I have always been a high achiever as well. So I can see the relationship between my headaches and key times in my life when achievement was imminent, possible or a breakthrough was on the horizon.

So at the moment I am sitting to write this piece from a point of pain. An all too familiar default in my body is headache. Yes there are physical reasons. Let’s just call it transition or change of life.  This explanation still does not alter the fact that pain comes up in my life.